one more thing...

People keep saying, "oh you don't need to lose weight", "there is nothing on you", "you're not fat".

Well there is, trust me, my BMI says so, Trainer says so and I say so.

I hide it well with what I wear, spend a day not eating before I go out so I don't look bloated or take photos at a certain angle to look thin.

So yes, I am fat...like I said at the beginning of this, not morbidly obese, but fat nevertheless. This isn't a vanity thing, this is the truth. I hate the way I am now, and how I live is giving me health problems. I am aware there are people bigger than me but if I don't turn things around now I will end up like that, I know it.